Espresso for a Woman's spirit

I am really leaving. It's D-4 days to Sydney. I have been spending the past week meeting up with people. Some are new acquitances that i have just started getting comfortable with. Others are old friends who go back years and we are like history... Whatever it is, it is sad to leave them. I wonder if things were ever be the same after the break in communication. Of course, the world is smaller now with internet connection, skype, gchat, yahoo messenger etc.... still i feel that nothing beats face to face contact and communication. To my friends, See you'll again soon

Had a rough weekend. Had difficulty getting out of the house to go to church for the first time. I prayed very hard for strength. Feeling that i would probably make the children cry when they saw me, i decided against going to teach. Yet, God once again showed his mercy and grace for me. the sermon was great... especially JT's illustration of how the gospel was powerful enough without adding or subtracting from it. He used the illustration of blackjack. 21 was the magic no in blackjack. More than 21, you bust the bank. Less than 21, you can lose. The gospel is like 21. just enough.... Then God gave me friends. Loads and loads of people to speak to, to distract me, to encourage me. some didn't even know that they were actually encouraging me. Thanks for hanging out with me. I know that when things get tough, all i need to do is to depend on God and take the first step. Like a physiotherapist, even though we think we can't walk on that broken leg, God is there to support up a...

Today i have been reflecting on broken relationships. Yes, actually i have been reflecting for a long time already. only today it's more objective rather than subjective. I visited a friend who just had an operation. We had lunch with her and her husband and the topic of divorce came up. Apparently during their courtship, they had broken up for a month. During which period of time she had been unable to accept it and kept calling him and was told "i don't love u anymore" (sounds familiar??) He says, " you can still remember it after so long?" (they have been married for 5 years) She says " it hurt so bad that i can't forget it. " which struck me cos even though they are happily married with 2 kids now, she still can't forget the hurt so how much more the hurt when a relationship with someone you love is broken. i sometimes feel the hurt too much to bear, but when i think about it logically, i have replaced that relationship with the love of...

a friend introduced me to jigsaw puzzles a while back. it's a rather expensive habit cos apart from the costs of the jigsaw puzzle, the frame also cost quite a bit. recently though i've discovered that the ikea frames are cheap and although they don't fit exactly, it stil looks quite good. so i have started again. i just completed one yesterday. 500 pieces. this one took me longer than i expected cos of the very complex blue sky, in jigsaw puzzle terms, the more homogenous the picture is the more difficult the puzzle cos you are just trying to match puzzle shapes. anyhow i finished it. it got me thinking though about how we are like jigsaw puzzles, we can't see the big picture, sometimes when we try to fit the pieces in, we just can't get them to fit and sometimes the pieces that seem to fit so well are actually the wrong ones. it also takes lots of patience to piece the pieces together; but the reward in the end is worth it. i pray that God is fixing a beautiful pi...

I think i started a blog a long long time ago however the last time i had 1 entry and have since completely forgotten about it. I hope this blog lasts longer. I feel that the last 4 months have been one long sabbatical even though i officially only stopped work for the last few weeks. since my great spiritual upheaval, i have not been doing very much serious work actually. Hehe.... I am looking towards going to sydney in apprehension. Not very excited but looking forward to a change of atmosphere for a while. I have discussed this with a few post 30 people. When you go past 30, any change is not welcomed. when i was younger, i would have been so so excited about going to stay in a new country away from my parents but now much older, i don't really want to leave....Most of us post 30s have similar feelings. suddenly your roots grow and pulling them up is painful. I can only pray that God will get me through this as he has always and that he will show me a new perspective on life ( h...